My evil plan

Behold the woes of a horseless horse crazy woman. Those of us who have had to work for their time with horses knows how this feels, none to good. I have spent hours bemoaning the fact that I don't have a horse, I wasted years wishing for one but not doing anything about my No Horse Syndrome.
Until my discovery two years ago.
I can write and I can write well.
Writing books is something I found I'm good at, It's a nice job, you pick the hours and you're your own boss (nobody, beyond yourself, leaning over your shoulder screaming, "DO THIS! DO THAT! BE HERE! BE THERE! blah, blah, blah.)
My evil plan of evilness is to publish books, sounds very simple. But just take a good look at famous authors who are rolling in money becuase of their books, (okay not rolling in money but richer then me) and some of them, (no offense and not telling who) can't even write that well and their famous for their books that aren't the best books I've ever picked up.
I have come a LONG way from the person who picked up a pencil and a horsy notebook and said, "I'm going to write a book, it'll be an EASY way to get a horse."
To this day I am still eating my words, EASY is not a word to describe the up hill down hill plunges I've taken while writing. EASY isn't the word I would use to describe what I've written, torn apart, yelled at, got two inches away from stomping on, and riping my hair out over. EASY is NOT a word in my vocabulary anymore.
My plan of evilness is still in working progress and it is not in ANY way EASY!!!
I've written countless drafts of a certian story, each one took me five to six months to complete, and then just like magic I took a break from that story and began writing another one, I finished the first draft in a month and fourteen days.
A MONTH AND FOURTEEN DAYS compared to SIX MONTHS, sheesh.
I'm still writing the second draft, and now I'm asking for help, asking for someone, (anyone who knows what writing a book is like) who knows how to get over the first draft blues, (and the second draft, and the third draft, and the fourth draft...) to help me get over this, can't get beyond drafts, wants to be published problem.
HELP!!!
From a very desperate author who is trying to get a horse, blog over.